When you are using more than one language regularly on daily basis, it is inevitable that these get all interwoven in sentences that I use in those daily conversations. Of course that would work among your friends and family members who understands them at least a bit of each. Or sometimes you know three languages and your friend might know two of them well enough to understand your mixed sentences. However when you are talking to a person who doesn't understand anything but one his native language, and you can only think of a word in a specific language that neither he knows nor you know how to explain it, then it's somewhat more frustrated than as if the person doesn't understand your language at all.
So here is the circumstance: I speak three languages , A, B, C. then the person understand A, and a little bit of B. but this specific word, I can only think of it in C. Most of the time my family knows a bit of everything, so I would ask. but this person does not, and I am left in agony that I cannot continue the conversation with that topic. ugh!!!
Then I realized that though many people think that it would be so awesome to become multilingual, there seems to be a limit in keeping up with everything to the maximum superior level. Maybe it is good enough to read and have a conversation or two, it is so hard to keep their quality enough to speak and write eloquently as the native speakers... native, meaning, that is your "main" language.
Might sound strange, but I don't have a main language. I know three quite fluently, but all of them lacking in something. I can never sound like a true native speaker. Basically, language skill also thins out when it is stretched too much. Arthur Rubinstein apparently spoke 7 languages fluently but not great in any of them.
I wish I knew more vocabularies in each languages, I wish I can read more in many other languages... Ah, I know, I'm probably too greedy. It might sound like I am so proud of myself as well - and that might be true. But well, that might be another part of me - having an identity crisis, so I want more of the protection from knowledge. Though I know it would never satisfy me completely, I still want to be smarter and wiser and more talented and polished. Be perfect so no one could accuse me. That might probably the reason. I want more because I am a coward.
Without all these nonsense talk, language is still a very interesting subject. It's a science, anthropology, art, and philosophy. there's no harm in learning them, for sure. I wish it was a little more easier to obtain the skill and easier to build up the vocabulary bank.
